《Princesas》

對這些另類電影很感興趣，可能因為早已厭倦了一般的港産片及荷里活電影。

兩個來自不同國家不同背景的妓女，因為在相同的地方找生意而認識，然後慢慢産生友情。

一個是個母親，因為要供養在故郷的媽媽及4歲大的兒子而流落異響賣肉為生，最後得了危疾而決定回家陪伴親人。另一個是本地的中産技女，有着自身的家庭問題。

有某些場景很能細緻地刻畫她們的內心世界：

• 與一般人同樣渴望被愛：很想有男朋友等自己下班，假如是在雜貨店工作，能透過玻璃窗看到正在等待自己下班男友的背影便心滿意足。假如有其他女人盯着自己的男友，就更覺得滿足。但由於工作的關係，這個是個奢望。
• 需要性亦需要愛更需要肯定：在DISCO吸引了男士繼而通宵達旦。「今晚我們不是技女，是公主！」
• 無助的一群：一個被毒打，一個被半強迫性行為。
• 對愛情都有幻想，但都知道沒有希望：當談到而失去的男友時，本地技女說：「因為思念而存在着才顯得重要，正如妳是因為思念妳的孩子所以他的存在才重要，存在本身沒有意義。」

好戲本、好演員、好戲。

情緒

唔開心。

有時會忽然好唔開心，但唔開心通常都是mild，唔開心一般會「想像」更多唔開心的事。想返阿A某句難入耳的話，或想返阿B點樣唔了解自己。唔開心時又會想到神，點解會比人唔開心？愛人既神點解會容許唔開心既發生？唔開心既亦會想到自己好似無乜朋友，點解自己唔開心無人知(其實係因為自己無講人知，但唔開心就係會咁問)？唔開心又會想到點解自己有家好似無家？有神好似無神？有信仰好似無信仰？唔開心會持續幾耐？唔開心係咪成年人既專利？小時好似無咁多或咁唔開心？Anyway . . .

總之唔係好開心，丫唉！

(非)理性(一)

理性：分析一切己有數據，想出一切的可能性，每個可能性給予一個機會率。但數據有限，分析的方法不完美，所謂的可能性本身也代表着不肯定，為何仍要理性？理性為何仍有優勢？

感性/直覺：在某種意義上代表相信人的「本能反應」，完全無數據，直覺說去就去，直覺說不去就不去。但從進化的角度其實不是完全沒有數據，因為數據及行數方案本身已與身體結合。例如身型好的女性代表着優越的生育能力，對稱的相貎代表着健康，男性有資源代青有能力撫育下一代。在科學進步到某個境地以先，直覺/感性有時會說成是非理性。在未來可能有更多資料顯示某些人對另外些人特別有興趣，或對某些科目特別討厭的「直覺」原來是基因或進化的緣故。

信心：在沒有充分、有概括性的數據及完美的分析方案下相信某種可能性。要相信同樣的事情，資料越少，需要的信心便越大，相反亦然。如果手上有的資料與相信的事情是背道而馳，那更要額外的信心。信心的必要條件是手上有最少的資料支持某種概念。

盲信/單純的信：在完全沒有數據下相信某種說法。例子如一種完全唔認識的生物(如外星人)說(但能和您溝通)銀河系快要大爆炸了而布殊相信了！外星人的「信譽」無從估計，講的銀河系毫無資料，布殊就真的盲目相信了銀河會有大爆炸。

着迷：在越來越多的資料顯願原先相信的理念是錯誤時仍相信原來的理念，將一切相反的資料合理化。要先相信某種概念，然後發現相反証據。

否認：在有足夠資料顯示某種說法的情況下仍拒絕相信。Dick Cheney：「無全球暖化問題！」結左婚而唔知離婚率係咁高既朋友：「超過50%的離婚率的研究方法一定出了亂子！」

等待研究院入學結果心路歷程

Feb 17
I read from email that I was admitted by Iowa State U. The timing was totally unexpected because I just had had the interview exactly a week ago, Feb 10. Upon receiving this news I felt thrilled, excited, as well as a sense of higher-than-usual self-worth. I thought to myself, "Man, it's only Feb and I already landed on an offer. I must be good! And more good news of school offers must be queued. (FYI: notification of acceptance is usually made in March)

Feb 24
Another week ago after the exciting news of my first offer, I checked my mailbox and received a small envelope from U of Iowa. "Urrr, well, a rejection doesn't mean much, I have an offer in Feb, now a rejection also in Feb to counter-balance. Not bad! Not bad!" So I felt more than ok. 15 minutes later I was home and checking my email again for the day and found out another rejection from the school I really want to go to. "Shxt! Probably I am not that good afterall. All of a sudden I have rejection one after the other within 30 minutes. I felt a sense of low self-worth. "It must have been luck that I landed on my first offer!"

Feb 26
Two days after the serial bad news, a professor from yet another U emailed me that he wanted to have a telephone interview with me. It was sort of a surprise because I knew that 2 candidates were before me for this grad study spot. The added surprise originated from the fact that I did not give them all the requirement document. Nonetheless they still picked up my application and read. I felt a bit lucky.

March 2
Another rejection, but not much feeling now. Probably due to flooding of bad news. "As long as I have one offer, that's all I need. Afterall Iowa State U is not that bad."

March 3
Learning from the mouth of a professor of another U who interviewed me in the morning that timing for grad school application for this particular year of admission was almost the worst possible made me feel much better. He also mentioned that UCLA were not taking any new student and that many instiutions stopped hiring new Ph.Ds. With this piece of information, I suddeny felt that getting an offer was indeed a big accomplishment this year! "Woo, afterall I am pretty good!"

個人行山

第一次一個人行山，和多過一個人行山的分別：

感覺有點不安全，
感覺速度快了，似是走山，多於行山，
較能集中看景色或想拍攝的事物，可能沒有人談話，
一路走一路看時間，次數密了，與自己競爭，
感覺作為帶隊要負的責任少了，現在只為自己帶隊，沒有詳細看路，
結果走錯提早下山了！