假如要忘記就能忘記‧‧‧

已經完全忘記要寫blog這回事，幾乎是在我的意識中消失了。

湊巧地近來從多方對話中都講到忘記的問題，為了考試背了一大堆英文生字，但記得多亦忘記得快，點解唔可以就咁upload一堆字入腦中？ 一個研究生話有部電影的情節是可以選擇性地刪除人的記憶，那情節以現時的科技肯定是天馬行空的，但假如真的能說忘記什麼就忘記什麼，又會發生什麼事？

- 所有人都會第一時間刪除「唔開心」的記憶，但想深一層，類似的不愉快經歷會有類似的人或物在類似的環境用類似的方法再令人「唔開心」一次，咁類似的「唔開心」經歷就會日日新鮮，亦喪失了防範的機制。似乎唔work。
- 已可以宣佈人類已戰勝心理病而戰戰勝的方法就是去忘記不愉快的記憶，實在是聽起來都有點弔詭，以忘記來戰勝。都係面對同上類似的問題，只是將心理病一出時就按del制，即係病一發就即刻見光死。
- 跳出個人層面，刪除民族間互相廝殺的過去，再不會有國仇。國仇沒有了，家恨就更是小兒科啊。
- 除記憶的開心與否，會否有人想忘記己學到的技術的記憶，例如想重新想開游水及踏單車？
- 會否有人選擇hard format，索性忘記自已的身份，在人生的某個階段從身活過？

記憶實在是一樣神奇的「東西」。

我外公過身前的幾年都因為年老將過去的人事物忘記得差不多一干二淨，面對一個您原本好熟悉但佢完全唔記得您的人感覺會有點陌生。佢再唔能夠分享過去的記憶，要以什麼「身份」再對佢實在是完全摸不着頭腦。人的關係似乎離不開記憶，假如第二次見面的人能說出您的名字您便很大機會對佢有好印象。沒有記憶就沒有關係了。

Big 10 everyday inconsiderate incidents

1. rush to slam the elevator door even before it opens (so that people can get out)
   
2. dash into the elevator without letting the people inside out
3. go after someone who opens a door that's just big enough to squeeze his/her own body through
4. all-time worst: cutting the queue!
   
5. talking on the phone at the volume similar to a concert
6. pole man/lady: holding the pole circumferentially in public transportations
7. blocking on the fast lane of the escalator
8. squeeze the almost-incompressible bus/train
9. chat when in the line, then think for a good while what he/she wants to order at the cashier of a fast-food restaurant
10. (rarely but did happen) while you are ready to throw your bowling ball, kids/adults cross right in front of you
    

Fear of agedness

Sudden flux of fear of becoming old inundated (overwhelmed) my mind while I was in the gym. It was probably elicited by an uncle in the gym and my left knee ailment. Ever since I turned 30 I was more aware about my health condition. I could not read small prints when the lighting is not bright enough. My left knee had been complaining even before I was 30. Back ailment would surely continue to linger. Is there anything cool about agedness?

Past photos disclosed that I was no longer a young fresh grad. Though my skin is never close to good, it does not scintillate (sparkle) like before, no longer radiating the fearless prime. I may still saunter (casual walk), but probably not strut (walk with pride). I might still act in certain pattern, but the behaviors are not longer reflex-like but with much thoughts and consideration.

So agedness seems quite consternated (fearful) , but what if we can stay young, say certain stage of life. What if we can choose a specific age range to stay in that stage forever? What would life experience become if such quixotic (fanciful) thing does happen? Would we then still want to freeze the moment? It just seems that it is another mis-want. But as always, what I don't understand is that why God design our living space in such way. I will mark this down for later question session.