Re-orienting myself

School is entering the third week. Though I am ahead in readings and do revised what's covered in the past two weeks, I still don't feel a very high sense of control.

Probably it's these stuff that's at the back of my mind that affect my sense of control:
- Thesis project
Still haven't met my supervisor nor has she replied my e-mail yet.
- Lack of a textbook
Still haven't got the textbook for a course, so haven't learned anything yet
- Master application is not finished yet
- Some worries about writing any paper, my key weakness
- Road after graduation from this program
Need to get a job after this, but toward where to go is not concretely decided yet
- Preparation for the killing GREs and recommendations

In life there are simply too many variables that are out of control.

As a Christian, it is easy to say that God's in control. Period. Yet when something that's not in the will of ourselves happens, we easily wonder where on earth is God. I am still refining what is the appropriate attitude toward God and toward life.